Feeling less miserable

I don’t have much to say at the moment and I know I should be resting my brain anyway. And quite frankly I’m scared of the randomness factor way too much. I have said things that have just made J laugh at me and not in a “you’re so witty and amusing way” but more like “oh dear, she’s mad and I’m not really sure I want to be involved with her” way.

I’m having to make a rule not to make any life changing decisions while this head injury thing is causing me grief and certainly not break up with anyone or anything like that. Or let paranoid thoughts take over.

On a high note (sort of) I get to come home and sleep every day instead of working a full day at work though I have about a billion emails to clear, but my brain turns to mush by about midday everyday. It’s sort of nice to come home, but I’m trying not to think of the economic impact. I really need to sort out with ACC (our public accident compensation organisation – the organisation that stops us from sueing for compesation) if I can get money or whatever if I need more time off as I must be eligible. It’s only 80% of a maximum income that is less than what I earn though. Fingers crossed it will  all clear up soon.

By the way, I’m the second person in my family to get a head injury as my dad has quite a severe one. I think I’m meant to go through this just to know what he experiences all the time. Fatigue is a hard thing to understand unless you experience it – it feels a bit long a fog of fuzziness rolling in your brain. I feel real guilty for my lack of sympathy in the past with dad, going to have to apologise big time!

 And you might be wondering what the picture of my hand has to do with anything – well it doesn’t I just wanted to show off the manicure I had today. It’s the nicest thing I’ve had happen in a while!